'Look, I don't want to talk about how I feel, alright?' Harry said heatedly.
'Harry, suffering like this proves that you are still a man! This pain is part of being human-'
'THEN-I-DON'T-WANT-TO-BE-HUMAN! I-DON'T-CARE!' screamed Harry until his voice broke, while he seized Dumbledore's instruments and hurled them all over the office.
Dumbledore merely observe Harry demolishing his office before replying, 'You do care. You care so much you feel as though you'll bleed to death by the pain of it.' "
- Excerpted from J.K. Rowling's "Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix"
If you are in Harry's shoes, how would you feel? Know that you must live without a family for thirteen years, to suddenly found someone as close to you as a family can be, only to lose him/her, by a mistake you felt you should have avoided?
Would you do as he does, yelling till you're hoarse that you won't care, while inside you're tearing apart? Would you show no feelings, but inside you're still grieving to the point of insanity?
Nowadays, people would chose the latter over the former - to grieve for someone, especially in front of others, was now treated as weakness rather than compassion. My regrets considering the situation, since that the griever who does so often end up really, really bad. Its like trying to wall-in a flood - when you can't hold it any longer, it breaks and come forth multiple times worse than when you first felt it.
"Oh, well, we'll get over it," you say. But to get over it, you have to let it go first, not clinging to it. And, well, I've yet to find a better way to let it go than to just express it, no matter how histerical it'll come out. Everybody feels better after doing so - the first step to move on to the future is to let go of the present.
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