Am I Racist?

If you're anyone close to me (read "friends") you'd probably answered that question with a "Like, duhh..." But recently, I find myself not that sure anymore.

Yep, I woulda leap at the chance to get outta here, to see the world, to leave this percieved unjust and corruption. Yet, for all of its pollution, this place is still my home, a place where my family belongs. I may go to the ends of the earth, but in the last days of my life, I'll spend it here, with the people I cared for the most.

That's why when I see unity for all its simple beauty, I was moved. Perhaps the wrongs can be made right, after all. I sincerely hope that is the case, for no one would hope to live in a place that did not deserved to be called home.

So maybe I'm not racist after all. I'm...... just concerned and frustrated.

(Perhaps you see this as a lie, instead of whatever I intended it to be. No matter. I have no quarrels with you. But, if by chance we can no longer access this blog in the future, it means that some higher authority has agreed with you.)

Opposites, Versuses, Againsts

Come to think about it, just about everything in this world has an equal and opposite element to it. Science has art, life has death, earth has sky, and even our brains have left and right hemispheres (which control the opposite side of the body).

Taoism perfectly describes the phenomenon with the "yin-yang" concept - with every manifestation of active (yang) power, there's a passive (yin) power to control it. Its a cycle with neither beginning nor end. Sometimes, some factors may went over the edge, while others were suppressed until they were not able to cope, but Mother Nature has a way to restore balance. Given enough time, Her agents and mechanics can return things to how it should be.

But humans have a differnet view on how "balanced" their surroundings should be. They tipped the scale, not just in their favour, but way into their desires. They created imbalance so that their lusts could be satiated, then they requested for evermore. In the process, actions that could destroy our own beloved Home, were committed to the extent that natural regen will be too late for mankind. One can only hope to attribute a little at a time, the best they can, to help heal the world so that the next generation will not inherit the consequences of their fathers' wrongs.

Are we too late?

Decipher - Break the code.

IMHO, deciphering coded messages and breaking passwords that are not meant for you is a serious violation of privacy. If people keep things hidden, they do it because its in their best interest. So if we were to do this, we must ensure that it IS for good, that our conscience would not be stained by guilt for it.

"Blue Wolf"

Remember the story? Well, if you haven't, click the link later. Because the two words are not just the title of the stories, they are also a pseudonym I used during my time online. Can you figure out another meaning within? How would you do it?

Codes were invented when people needed to interact with each other, but faced inconvenience in direct communication. Maybe a lad wanted to express his feelings to his lover with a billet-doux, but was afraid of the parents discovering his intentions. Or maybe an undercover agent needed to pass messages on terrorist activities without being blown. Thus, cipher systems were invented. The corresponding de-code system would then be used to reveal meaning in what seemed to be gibberish. An example is the Morse code (which the uninitiated might think to be plain dots). But such systems have a common flaw - given enough time and resources, the system can be cracked. With the speed of today's supercomputers, many entities can break such codes in a matter of minutes.

But I guess that ain't helping you here. After all, this is a personal code, without a system to refer to, and its not even a random computer-generated-phrase. So, in order to comprehend it, you need to know its composer's psyche well. Here are a couple of hints to get you along:

~ I'm emo (or used to be).
~ I left some words about me in the blog. Look around.
~ I am proficient enough in both Chinese and English languages for competent application in daily life (Forgive my seeming lack of modesty).

Post a comment, or leave a note on my Cbox, on what have you deciphered from the two words above. If you get my "name within name" correct, I'll have to hand it to you, you're either a brilliant psychologist, or you already were my closest friend the moment you knew of my existence.

Then again, who said you couldn't be both?

Doomsday+4 : Reincarnation

Dismantle my being.
Decimate my name.
Efface my memories.
Destroy my spirit.
Obliterate my soul.

Break me into pieces, then fling them far and wide. Scatter the fragments that once formed who I was. Annihilate me, so that I may become more than me.

Let me be reborned

- ZT